Walking Through the Fire

"body">book, checking in with me from time to time with
I believe one of the most amazing gifts of this life ofquestions and concerns. Every so often, she would
the challenges, and inner and outer, that we're givene-mail me that she was moving forward. Then on
to propel us into growing as human beings. Whileday I received an e-mail that stated 'I'm Ready' in the
we're spiritual beings, to try to evade the fact thatsubject line and I smiled.
we're also human is to ignore why we're here toTogether we began a journey through her life. We
begin with and also to lose the possibility of trulylearned what had brought her to where she was
enjoying the gift of being totally and completelynow and how she'd created her path thus far. She
human and spiritual at the same time.realized that a part of her had always known that
As a healer, I've often found it's a deep seated needher course would change when she got older and her
to heal the calls people to their path. Illness - physical,kids were out on their own. She new deeply that it
mental and spiritual - and human pain are often thewas time to go into herself, really for the first time,
impetuses for finding that which you are truly calledand find out who she was without all of the roles
to do, and when soul calls your human part toshe'd been playing. It was such an honor for me to
change, it's hard not to listen. Sure, you can draw itbe present as she dove into herself and connected
out for while but ultimately it comes back to yourdeeply with her soul.
needing to step up to your life and heal the past toAt times, it took weeks for her to be able to face
fully step into your future.the truth without running from it, but her
Once you step into the fire, taking on the challengescommitment to seeing this through pushed her to
of your humanity, then you can truly begin tostand in the fire and let it burn away the debris of
understand compassion. I recall speaking with a 54illusion and judgment. We both knew this was her
year old woman several years ago. She was angrypath and her heart began to explode, it was like a
and bitter because she was sick for the first time inlight came on deep in her heart and for the first time,
her life, and it made no sense to her. She had neverI felt like I was truly seeing her in all of her beauty.
been sick, never experienced a truly deep loss, andHer journey ultimately led her to move to the other
never been thrown into what she termed 'a heartside of the U.S. and she decided that it was time to
wrenching experience'. She realized this was such arelease her partner and walk her path alone for a
time and didn't feel she had the tools to go throughwhile. She chose a new career that allowed her to
it. She kept trying to evade it and it wasn't working.live her life as well and shifted to a more modest
She didn't know what to do. When we went deeperhome and lifestyle. She's happy now, a term that she
into her current situation, we found her illness wasn'thadn't used for herself for years and for the first
the only change she was experiencing. She was alsotime, she told me she's 'home' within herself.
considering leaving her husband, was deeply ready toShe touches base from time to time with questions
change her career, and felt like she wanted to moveand offerings. I've learned a lot from her and am
somewhere where she felt more at home. Overall,always honored to be present for her next
she wanted a new life and this illness was telling hertransformation.
the time was now.Wishing you beauty and power in each moment. May
I told her I was excited for her and she looked atwe all walk through our fire and listen to our
me like I was speaking a foreign language. I guess onyearnings.
some level for her in this lifetime, I was. Yet it wasBlessings,
clearly a language she deeply wanted to learnJenifer
remember. I told her from my point of view, sheNote: Many ask if I follow the Michael Harner
was ready to walk through her 'Fire' for the first time(Foundation for Shamanic Studies) methods or Sandra
and what a powerful journey this was going to beIngerman's work. While I have studied with western
for her. Her body, heart, soul and mind were all callingshamans, including Alberto Villoldo (The Four Winds
for the changes to happen and if she chose to takeSociety) and others, my work is an integration of my
responsibility for her life, she was going to step into apersonal shamanic journeys since childhood and my
new journey that would change her on many levels.work with western, European and indigenous
In that first meeting, my excitement was a bitshamans. Rather than focusing on the work of a
overwhelming for her. She new it was right and shespecific teacher, I work with my personal spirit guides
said she felt this was the language for what she hadand the intuitive of my heart and soul to offer the
been feeling, she needed some time to process this.ability for the experience to unfold exactly as it
I gave her some books to read specific to her needsshould and always does, using ritual and the love for
and offered her the opportunity to contact me whentruth beyond judgment that I believe is the core of
she was ready. She took the time she needed tothis work.
experience her current state and went through each