Spiritual Awakening - The Beginning

Spiritual awakening is the process by which we shedshows that you have identified with your anger - the
our false dysfunctional ego and allow our true selvesego and you are one. Someone attacked your
to run our lives. We glorify God by becoming who Hedysfunctional ego, so you are angry.
made us to be. The beginning of this process is forAnother way keeps us in a better position, and
us to have a shift in consciousness. There has to bebegins to pry the ego's coils from around our soul,
a realization, either sudden or gradual, that ourallowing the power of God to begin to flow back
behavior and thoughts are not really soul-based (ourthrough our true self. In this approach we would
true selves), but are mind-based (ego-oriented). Atbegin by writing, "I felt anger because so-and-so said
some point we come to realize that we arethis to me." We have now placed the anger out in
discontented, unsettled, and "not our self." Or wefront of our self where it can be examined more
may feel that we are "beside our self." With thiscarefully. We will soon discover that our dysfunctional
feeling there is often a sudden awareness that thereego was injured by the incident, not our true self. As
are actually two entities struggling for control of oursoon as we realize this, the anger dissipates because
consciousness.it's exposed for what it really is. It can't stand against
Or we may feel that we are "beside our self." Withthe light of truth. Our true self can't be harmed by
this feeling there is often a sudden awareness thatthe words fired at us from another person's ego
there are actually two entities struggling for control(remember that their true self would never say such
of our consciousness. This is the time when we maya thing!). We realize that the incident was an
recognize that we have been under the influence ofego-to-ego exchange, that the other person's ego
an egoic mind (the dysfunctional ego) and we needwas protecting itself by trying to diminish our ego.
to break free. We understand that there needs toThe true selves of the people weren't even involved.
be a separation of our self from our thoughtSo, here is the subtle, yet all-important difference:
processes. we need to disidentify with the mind. The- "I feel anger;" versus "I am angry."
goal isn't to get rid of the thinking mind, but to put it- "I feel frustrated;" versus "I am frustrated."
back into its proper position relative to the soul. The- "I feel fear;" versus "I am afraid."
mind is a wonderful tool for us to use, butSeparating ourselves from our ego is ego awareness.
sometimes we let it take over our decisions for us.This will allow us to have more compassion for our
Realizing that there needs to be a split between mindself, and for the other person who may be totally
and soul is sometimes referred to as ego awareness.unaware that his or her dysfunctional ego is in control
This doesn't mean we stop using our minds, but weof him or her. Incidents of the day that used to really
begin to use them in the right way. Being aware ofupset us can now be an opportunity for further
what is happening when we come under thelearning and spiritual growth. These incidents are no
influence of the ego-mind is one of the biggest stepslonger assaults, but gifts! They teach us more about
in taming it. With a little practice, we can see and feelour self and our dysfunctional ego that's now on the
when the dysfunctional ego moves in. What areway to dissolving. Don't resist them or renounce
some of the symptoms of its impending approach?them, just observe them. This begins the process of
Any of the following could be a sign that our truereclaiming our soul, our connection with God.
self, the self that is connected with God, is beingAs you practice this technique, eventually you will get
threatened:o Fearo Worryo Angero Guilto Shameobetter at it and be able to create ego awareness
Prejudiceo Biaso Lusto Greedo Confusiono Envyocloser and closer to each and every moment. You
Hatredo Gossipo Anxiousnesso Irritationowon't need to wait until the end of the day to realize
Restlessnessthat the feelings that have arisen in you are the
Any behavior that diminishes us, other people,result of a wounded ego, and not your true self.
creatures, nature or property is probably a strongEventually you catch the ego before it has a chance
indication of the presence of a dysfunctional ego.to act.
Because our dysfunctional ego isn't really part of ourRarely in life, except in emergencies, do we have to
true self, we can gain an advantage over it byrespond as quickly as we think we must. There is
recognizing it as being separate from us. We canusually time to think before we respond. But cultural
begin to distance ourselves from it by observing, inconditioning often demands an immediate response in
the moment, how we're feeling, how we're behaving,many situations. Pausing to think and craft an
how we're reacting to other persons or situations. Toappropriate response is generally viewed poorly and
begin to create this separation from our ego, we canas a sign of dullness or a product of low intelligence,
ask ourselves questions such as:or of being unprepared in a fast-paced society. "Time
- "Why did I say that?"is money," "If you snooze, you lose," and other
- "What am I feeling about that right now?"slogans remind us not to waste time, even a
- "How would I describe what just happened to me?"moment, or you'll get behind and start to lose ground.
These and similar self-examining questions help us toBut this is short-term thinking, invented by egos, the
begin to separate ourselves from our dysfunctionalkind of thinking that often gets us into big trouble.
ego. Our true selves would not have behaved poorly,The truth is that if we take more time up front than
but while we're under the spell and control of thethe "fast thinker," the person who is good at
ego, we behaved in a way that will either protect our"thinking on their feet," we end up better off in the
ego from threats or will help our own ego grow andlong run. Taking time to process and make good
thrive.decisions creates fewer mistakes, strengthens
So to break free we begin to separate ourselvesrelationships, and generally improves the quality of life.
(the 'observer') from the feeling or action (thePausing pays off in many ways! The soul is not in a
'observed'). When we first practice this technique, wehurry. The ego is in a race.
may not be able to remember to ask theseIt's only through awareness, and not just thinking,
reflective questions of ourselves until later. We maythat we come to learn the difference between fact
have to begin by taking some time at the end of theand illusion. Illusions belong to our ego and not to the
day to reflect on the events of the day. This canreal self. Illusions will diminish when we bring them into
help us to begin developing the skill of being anthe light of awareness, the light of truth. Once we
observer of our own feelings and reactions. Journalinghave space between our true self and illusions, we
is one good way to do this.will be able to respond appropriately to the situation
Perhaps something happened during the day to makeat hand.
you feel slighted or angry. There are a couple ofOther Spiritual Postures used in Spiritual Awakening
ways to reflect on the incident. The first begins withthat will be discussed in upcoming articles.
writing the phrase in your journal, "I was angry(c) 2010 Daniel D.
because so-and-so said this to me." This approach