Confessions of a "Stress Junkie"

Have you ever had those days where you start toCards".
really wonder why you put yourself in situations soBorrow one from a friend. See if it feels right for
stressful that they are beyond any human being'syou, then diligently read it each and every day. Over
capacity to handle it? I have.and over.
I am a recovering "stress and adrenaline junkie".Buried under all of the negative messaging you have
Here's what "I know for sure" (if Oprah were tolearned to believe is a quiet voice wanting to be
ever ask me...):heard. It is just waiting for you to re-discover the
That my energy and natural ability to handle andlanguage of self love you knew as a child.
"control" large projects, multi-layered strategies,In the beginning, affirmations were my primer for
emergency situations, and rapidly changingre-learning this new language. Now, in a world full of
environments was a complete cover-up for a deep,negative messaging, affirmations serve to remind me
deep wound I call a "hole in my heart".to live in love first.
I attached my value to the fact that I was able toJournaling: As I became more comfortable with my
handle stress with grace and ease. I was proud tonew voice, I learned to write it down. Most call it
say I had worked in organizations that no one elsejournaling. Sandy Grason, in her book of the same
would put up with, or for difficult people, or in a 24/7name, called it a "Journalution". Julia Cameron, author
industry during very stressful times. That was myof The Artist's Way, recommends writing "Morning
strength, my special skill-- it was how I defined who IPages", and Heather Dominick, EnergyRich Success
was. And I craved those environments to feel goodCoach(r), describes "Scripting" her days.
about myself. When I wasn't "crazy busy", my egoIn the beginning, I couldn't write my thoughts- it
mind would push me into creating more chaos.made me feel too vulnerable and that was too scary.
When my "down on my knees" moment came, INow I know that this is the only way I found myself
was overcome with a true knowing that there is aagain.
power greater than me. In a moment, I surrenderedPutting my voice on paper made it real and personal.
my will and my life over to the care of that powerPutting my voice on paper gave it power. Putting my
(and I wasn't even sure who/what that was!).voice on paper helped me to clarify the thoughts
So I started to give up some of the "doings". Thatthat became my guide to inspired action. Putting my
meant I was giving up the thing that I had gatheredvoice on paper gave me the confidence to reach out
all my value from. And, with no "doings" andto you.
"controllings" to cover up the hole in my heart, whatAnd, most importantly, putting my thoughts on paper
was in there started bubbling up.continues to help me to move through fear, doubt
And when it did, my ego mind would try to drag meand negativity, when they show up.
back into more "doings" so I could generate someJulia Cameron says she writes Morning Pages to "get
more false self-worth and cover up the hole.to the other side: the other side of fear, of our
Sometimes ego still wins. But mostly, the hole isnegativity, of our moods. Above all, they get us
exposed now...beyond our Censor."
And I like it that way.Find a book and a pen or pencil that feels good. Keep
That's where the value of "inner work" really showsit in a safe place. Reach for it often, and begin
itself to me. My wellness practices support healingwithout judgment. Just write. Even if you write "I
that hole in my heart. From that place I've learneddon't know what to write today", begin the practice,
that it's OK to just be me, that I am worthy just asand you will find comfort.
I am, today, "warts and all".Recommended frequency: Daily. 15 minutes - 45
Only from that place, can I share my true, authenticminutes.
self with the world, see and hear divine guidance,Support from a coach/mentor/support group: As my
take inspired action and step into being considerablythoughts became clearer, and that "small, still voice"
HUGE!within began to speak louder, having a coach/mentor
So what do I mean by "inner work"?or support group nearby provided me a filter that led
For me, "inner work" is the practice of connecting tome toward greater and faster clarity. I learned I was
my spirit, my soul, my self in whatever way worksnot alone.
for me. My wellness practices gently lead me throughNapolean Hill, author of "Think and Grow Rich" first
my inner work that is slowly healing my heart.introduced us to the power of the "mastermind"
Ellen Meredith, author of Listening In: Dialogues withgroup, where individuals gathered to support each
the Wiser Self, confirms that many of us have aother, and the strength of the group could be
tendency to get cut off from spiritual nurturing, andcounted on to "uplevel" each of the participants. It is
to obscure that "small still voice" within which canhere that you can find the strength and support to
guide us. "There is no reason why your spiritualturn inspiration into action.
"practice" needs to be separate from the rest ofCoaches of all specialities are available in every
your life", she says.location and even remotely via teleclass and webinar.
"There is no rule that says you must sit apart inAnd low or no cost support groups, facilitated by
pious reflection and prayer for several hours a day. Involunteers, are available through most community
fact, the more you find ways to let the activities youcenters and hospitals.
do naturally resonate for you, the more likely you areFind a friend who attends a regular 12 step meeting
to have a dynamic spiritual practice."and go with her. Many of them are available for
My practice, or the method by which I complete my"clean" addictions (non-drug or alcohol related), like
"inner work", includes these four principle components:CoDa, which focuses on relationships and self-love. A
1. Wisdom Walkssmall donation, $1 or $2, if you are able, is all that is
2. Affirmative Readingexpected here.
3. Daily JournalingEven if one-on-one coaching may seem out of your
4. Support from a mentor/coach/groupbudget today, you can begin to experience the
These simple practices are integrated now into mysupport in groups that usually have minimal expense.
every day existence. They don't take a huge amountDon't be afraid to reach out if you hear a message
of time or specialty equipment and they can be donethat resonates with you. Borrow books, go to the
without a lot of expense.library. Find websites.
Wisdom Walks: Most spiritual guides incorporate someTrust that when you find a message that resonates
form of physical exercise into their plans forwith you, that is the message you are supposed to
enlightenment. In addition to the health benefits,hear. Stop searching and allow yourself to become
Wisdom Walks provide a time for me to connectimmersed in the support that the message will bring.
with the power of nature and a reminder that I amFor a long time, I continued to be so frightened by
grounded in source energy. Long before I grewthe awareness that I was gaining from the support
comfortable writing in a journal, I began walking byof my chosen mentors, that I kept running from
myself on the beach, sharing my thoughts with thegroup to group, keeping myself busy and distracted.
God of my choosing and asking for guidance.As a result, my journey has been much longer than it
"By the power of the wind, the waves and the sea,needed to be.
" I called. "God, please grant me clarity".Do the work without judgment. Be conscious of
I gathered treasures...symbols of my search for selfchoosing friends who will encourage you to do the
and gifts from a God I was desperate to know.work, not just talk about it-- over time, you will begin
And as I gained strength in the quiet of myto know the difference very clearly.
aloneness, I began to hear and feel guidance.Recommended frequency: Weekly at a minimum.
Find a place to walk where you can engage all ofAnd in all of these practices, there is one constant--
your senses. Walk alone. Talk to your God. Gathersimply, I've learned to pay attention with an open
treasures. Ask for guidance. Listen, and you willmind. I've learned to believe. Set skepticism aside and
receive.allow these simple practices to connect you to your
"Like an ability or a muscle, hearing your inner wisdominner guidance. Nurture your soul by paying attention
is strengthened by doing it." -- Robbie Gassto the beauty of all that surrounds you.
Recommended frequency: Daily. 15 - 30 minutes.Slow down. Get off the treadmill. Make the choice to
Affirmative Reading: For years now, I have begundiscard everything that distracts you from paying
my day with a simple reading. These readings comeattention to your true voice.
from daily meditation books like "The Language ofIn The Artist's Way, Julia Cameron writes:
Letting Go"and "Journey to the Heart", by Melody"The quality of life is in proportion, always, to the
Beattie, "Meditations for Women Who Do Toocapacity for delight. The capacity for delight is the
Much", by Anne Wilson Schaef, and "Living Juicy- Dailygift of paying attention. The reward for attention is
Morsels for your Creative Soul", by SARK, or fromalways healing.
affirmation cards like Louise Hay's "Power Thought