A Modern-Day 'Shaman'

I have known myself to be a healer, ministering togovernment-sanctioned spiritual leader of the
others, for nearly as long as I can recall. Mytraditional Teutonic religion Asatru; for 3 hours we
professional and spiritual selves are intertwined, anddiscussed mimetics and the resurgence of interest in
my life is "of a piece"...and surely handmade.animistic religions. In semi-arid Guanacaste, Costa Rica,
My ancestors were 'stillen im lande', the quiet peoplewith its black volcanic beaches, I joined a funeral
of the earth - my maternal line Amish and paternalparty as we paraded through the streets while
Mennonite - and, for good measure, others werecarrying the coffin and shovels; in Puerto Rico I had
Quakers. Pacifists all, and several clergy among theman out-of-body experience at the base of a waterfall
- still others, 'barber-surgeons', as the country doctorsin the El Yunque rainforest - on my 30th birthday and
of Switzerland, one of my two ancestral homes,at the time of my birth; in Belfast, Northern Ireland, I
were once called. Though my parents themselvesmet with a social worker who was facilitating social
weren't farmers, we nevertheless lived on farms forrelationships between Catholic and Protestant youth.
two distinct periods in my early childhood, and myI've listened to the repeated Islamic calls to prayer
first memories are of a deep connection with Naturethat order the days in Morocco and Egypt, and
in its myriad forms...and a lack of distinction from thecrossed the border on foot into Israel - Palestine,
natural world, a visceral impression which remains towhere I visited the Holocaust Museum and viewed
this day.the wall being built between peoples. In New Delhi I
By the time I was 5 years old, my father haddiscussed ayurvedic medicine with a family from
adopted a more fundamentalist religion. He became aKeralu, the ayurvedic center of India; with the father
minister, and for much of my youth I gained a deepof this family, a retired army general and devout
sense of community and service to others whileHindu, I explored pacifist methods of national
developing an intimate relationship with the world ofsecurity, the premise of the "think tank" that he
spirit. Soon thereafter we relocated to New York,developed and leads. Across the globe, I've attended
where I became acutely aware of art and theworship services in cathedrals and temples, mosques
creative act as a source of beauty and wonder,and synagogues, and countless other sacred places,
enrichment and expression of humanity's potential,and visited numerous houses of art.
spirit made manifest in much the same manner asIn Korea, Mongolia, and Siberia, I've witnessed and
the natural world had always been for me. Havingparticipated in shamanic rituals. One such ritual in
abandoned the religion of my youth by lateKorea took place over an 8-hour period on a large
adolescence, for the past 3 decades I've exploredflat boat in the Yellow Sea, an annual event for the
shamanism and other animistic, magico-religiousblessing of the fishing season which was led by Kim
traditions, worked in ritual with pagans and witches,Keum Hwa and supported by two dozen shamans
and sampled Judaism, Buddhism, Taoism, Islam,and musicians of North Korean heritage, with 200 of
Hinduism, Unitarian Universalism, and the Society ofus in attendance. Another occurred in Eastern Siberia
Friends [Quakers].in the hills near Lake Baikal, again an all-day affair this
Shamanic touchstones: generally blessed with strongtime in the Buryat tradition for one extended family,
constitution, at the age of 6 I was bedridden for twoincluding the sacrifice of a ram by the bloodless
months with a significant auto-immune illness; at 14, inBuryat method. To reclaim my own heritage, I
the ocean immediately following a thunderstorm, Itraveled to two small villages near Berne, Switzerland,
underwent a near death by drowning; at 32, Iwhere I met with town historians and genealogists in
experienced three months of altitude-induced mentalorder to detail my family lines: to "sing flesh onto the
instability. In childhood, I had a powerful dream ofbones" of long-dead ancestors, in the way of a
shamanic themes that included flying above a singleshaman.
ancient oak tree in a flock of giant waterfowl withIn addition to my work as an integrative psychologist,
human faces; I've also had a lifelong recurring dreamhaving also been ordained as an interfaith minister,
of emergence that begins with my swimmingI've studied Asian philosophies and practiced Chinese
fathoms deep in the ocean in a state of bliss. Inmedicine for many years. Having now lived in two
adulthood, I've experienced three profound visionsAsian countries and traveled to several more, I've
and multiple other transcendent events. One suchintegrated many of these spiritual values into my
vision was a powerful spontaneous healing from thebeing. As well, I've experienced and studied - and
harms of my youth; another took me to a forestedshared with others - multiple forms of healing and
sanctuary and, as many native peoples would say,consciousness-shifting, to include transpersonal
my totem creatures, while the third introduced me topsychology, meditation and trance, guided imagery
my ancestral Council of Elders and an intermediary, alland visualization, and various somatic and energetic
of whom I've worked with closely, in a trance state,therapies. Countless times I've experienced the
for 20+ years. I've encountered various naturalpower of spirit in the healing process; from a
disasters, been the recipient of violence several timessix-month old baby to a 92-year old man and the
in the form of street crimes in New York, witnessedspectrum in between, I've been privileged to witness
extremes of poverty, destitution, disease andtransformation.
homelessness, and experienced the longtermAn abundance of spiritual teachers and mentors from
aftereffects of mass destruction in the wake of thean array of perspectives and cultures have served as
World Trade Center disaster. All of these contributedmy guides. In addition to each of those already
to my spiritual growth.mentioned, of particular note are Dr Bou Yong Rhi in
At the tender age of 16, I was helping people to die.Korea, a neuropsychiatrist and Jungian psychologist
I worked as a nurse's aide in an eldercare facility, thewith a 40-year study of shamanism and its effects
policy of which was that no one should die alone buton the cultural psyche; Dr Elizabeth Serkin in the US,
with companionship - and grace, and dignity. For moreclinical sociologist and specialist in the treatment of
than three years, I sat with the dying, holding theirtrauma and of addiction, a lifelong Quaker from a
hands, often in poignant silence as they hoveredfamily of artists; and, Dr Sandra Rasmussen,
between the worlds, bathing and redressing theirpsychologist and nurse, who guided me closely in my
bodies following their final breaths. In my adulthood, Idoctoral work.
volunteered with a hospice and revisited thisSignificant relationships throughout my life, connection
experience. I've also served as witness to the deathand community, are in fact primary elements of my
of my beloved grandmother as well as that of a dearspiritual self, and I've been most fortunate in this
friend of the heart, and the traumatic near-death andregard. The experience of love, of cherishing and
longterm recovery of my sister.being cherished by another, on several occasions has
Traveling widely for the purpose of connectingopened my heart and soul to the spirit world in an
deeply with others and understanding culture, includingindescribably profound way; the love of friends and
art, folk medicines and mythologies, has enriched myfamily has provided me with an extensive and
spiritual life. I traveled to Cuernavaca, Mexico, oncomplex global community, and a deep sense of
several occasions to assist a mentor there in healingsupport. Humanistic values in outward manifestations
work. In Reykjavik, Iceland, I discussed naturalof social and political activism, pacifism, and
medicines with a woman from a 400-year lineage ofsustainability have directed my adult life and further
healers, the only ones given government permissiondetermined my spiritual development.
to harvest medicinal herbs at Thingvellir. There I alsoConnectedness, authenticity, and deep experience.
met with Jormundur Ingi, a druid and theThese are the themes of my spiritual journey.